Days drag by as i wish them away, cry them away, sleep them away.

This blog is to track my steps and my progress through a long term mental illness I fight everyday. A silent and invisible killer of my current generation; Depression.

Diagnosed and medicated at 15 years old, four years later I've had enough and am fighting back (well, trying to anyway). I'm tired of my life being controlled by something other than myself. I feel I'm missing out on my crucial teenage and early adult years. the years that are said to be the 'best years of your life'.

To date, i have gone through fluoxitine 20mg, to sertraline 50mg to currently taking 100mg with intentions to increase further. I have tried psychotherapy, counselling, CBT and paying for Hypnotherapy right now - hoping that this is the final and most successful therapy i will ever have to experience.

It hurts me when people stress their negative views of taking antidepressants, commenting on the placebo effect of them and how counselling is the only answer.
Well, actually..... they have saved my life. yet counselling.... has not benefited me even a fraction of my meds....
Bizarrely enough.. it took me a long time to agree to begin taking them... you could say I'm living proof.